Irrecoverable possibilities
A couple of things from this weekend reminded me about the extent to which I am asleep inside. It seems as though I have lost the ability to truly want to even be happy anymore. Compromising and settling with life must have been the worst step I could have ever taken. Honestly, once you settle with whatever you have no matter how insignificant or lacking it is, it is extremely difficult to snap yourself out of the state of being that you are in. In my case, I wanted to cling to this inadequate, wasteful state of being. In my slumber, I forgot that living does not merely consist of breathing.
I felt a few touches of happiness this weekend and I cannot come to grasp how amazingly uplifting and inspiring it was to be reminded of this thing we call “joy”. Joy is something that we all deserve, and this fact of life slipped my mind during the past couple of months. I hope that I am able to act on this epiphany, if you can even call it that. It is more of a self-reminder than anything else – a reminder triggered by various factors pushing themselves into a person’s face in hopes of being recognized and addressed.
The most painful thing in the world sometimes is unnecessarily reflecting on what could have been.
The most painful thing in the world sometimes is unnecessarily reflecting on what could have been.
sometimes it’s useful, but yeah it can often be self-destructive too.
Interesting blog (though I see you’ve ended it, and may never see this comment). Don’t let the challenges of modern life get to you. I’ve written about that in my blog quite a bit, including a recent entry “Choice” (http://scotterb.wordpress.com/2009/03/11/choice/)
I found your blog because your February 28th entry (your friends were playing pool and studying stats) got hit from my blog — and I’m not sure why. It probably was part of a randomly generated list, but I haven’t figured out from what post. So blogs live on, even after you’ve let them go!